The song goes like this:
"I can see clearly now, the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshiny day"--Johnny Nash
For me, it's more about hearing than seeing. I've had way too much stuff in my head for way too long, and that's led to distraction and detours from where I really think I'm supposed to be living my life. Not sure I see all the obstacles yet :-) and not sure all the dark clouds are gone :-/ but have been enjoying some pretty sunshiny days!
I've spent the last three weeks really purposing to re-orient my life. As I mentioned in my previous post, I deleted my Facebook app (not my Facebook...not feeling that call yet!). I shut my phone off a lot. Changed our homeschool curriculum, with fantastic results in just a week, to everyone's delight. Been walking more with the dogs and kids, listening to Bible study podcasts. Been turning off the kids' TV shows a lot more in the evenings. We play Scrabble. We read. Yesterday we drove to the beach and walked in the sand because it was just too gorgeous not to. We watch Veggie Tales ("First Thessa...Thessa..ThessaLUPians!") and Luke's becoming a big fan. I pay attention better when my husband and kids talk to me (and those kids, boy do they talk.......) and thus I'm a better wife and a better mom. I pray more during the day. Scripture washes my mind in little Word showers.
I am hearing God better. Developing a sense of trust and peace in Him. Feeling much better the rhythm of the days, finding myself thanking God for stunning sunsets. Sleeping better. It's amazing how much more life there is when there is less world in it.
You may wonder--ok, what is she saying exactly? We should be Amish? horse and buggy stuff? cut off our cell lines? throw the TV away? Never go see movies or get lost in a game app for awhile? NO. I can be IN the world, but at least for me, I just get too easily too much OF it. Maybe you too?
Do I feel this is for more than just me? Yes. I can't be the only one He's saying, "hey, ditch the blather and let's live life more simply and sanely" to. I think as the days grow closer to His return, He wants His church paying better attention. Being more salty. No dusty light bulbs. I think there's some putting away of strange gods to be done among us, some revival that's waiting to happen. I feel like there's more He's called me to than I am walking in, and I am tired of living less-than. Tired of spinning spiritual wheels. Maybe you too?
Is it a done deal? No way. Is it a process? You bet. And I'm gonna press on. There's a lot more re-ing to do (grin); I feel like I'm still in detox phase. Some days are fabulous. Some days don't seem to look any different than a month ago. And I don't know where I'm going...I just know I really don't want to go back.
Your strength will come from settling down
in complete dependence on me...Isaiah 30:15, the Message
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